Blackout

I'm not always like this, it's something I've become
A terrible weakness in my nature, in my blood

I wasn't always sick she said
I wasn't sick in the head
Till a man took my dignity with his dick instead
I used to trust people, love people
Used to go nuts, people call me crazy
From the B with but lately
It's like I cant trust my friends
Or men in general
Medical experts told me to just let it go
But put yourself in my situation
Skip degrading its not like I strip for temptation
I wish I didn't drink that night
I thought he was Mr Right when I kissed his lips tight
My head hurt, fuck men are jerks
I wish he would have took it out when I said it hurt
I wish a lot would have changed that night
Wish I'd stayed out of sight
Wish he'd never paid for the sprite
That I mixed with the vodka
Shot after shot
Cause I'd never guess after 12 that I
Couldn't stop him from topping me


Domino motion jump starts when we touch
The blackout approaching
Here it comes now
Wish me luck


I didn't even know who he was
A friend of a friend of a friend that does
He was on drugs apparently
I could tell by how he starred at me
His pupils glared at me
The black was so scary
He haunts my nightmares
The blues was right there
I wish I would have pushed him
But the booze was like yeah
I love this, I love you
Do what you please to me, I'm one with you
Until it hit me the situations risky
He kissed me than frisked me
Get off of my quickly
I tried to scream
He denied me to breathe
So I smacked him with my pack of cigarettes crying please
Get off of me, stop haunting me
Then I screamed where the fuck is the condom
See that's when number 13 snapped
And the blackout happened to fast to react


Domino motion jump starts when we touch
The blackout approaching
Here it comes now
Wish me luck


I awoke back at home but who drove
Then my phone said 8 missed calls from unknown
Then the sickness came
And the night came back and played out
Memories hit me, I remembered him
Wait now what if this sickness is morning sickness
Wait it couldn't come this quick could it
Maybe I'm mixed up
I'm hoping its not a kid
I'll head to the doctor then
I'll let him examine it
I'm never drinking again


Domino motion jump starts when we touch
The blackout approaching
Here it comes now
Wish me luck

Domino motion jump starts when we touch
The blackout approaching
Here it comes now
Wish me luck