The Man And The Gun

He sat alone, alone beside a stone. He said:
"It has to be done when daylight comes.
I must be strong, because it has to be done.
It must be done when daylight comes"
It's beating fast in his heavy heart tonight,
The blood pressure's unbearable.
An empty bottle on the floor, two bullets and a pen,
The blood pressure's unbearable.

"You deserve the flames,
You've always made the wrong decisions.
Now, be a man and go to hell,
You know what you need to do.
You've always been a bag of hurt
For all the people around.
Now, with what's left of your life,
You've got the chance to do something useful."

"I don't know what to write on this blank page covered in shame,
Don't you think I should step back?
And I don't even know what could be my last will,
Don't you think I should think twice?"

"You must understand
That I was made to blast your head,
Not to hear your complain
About the path you chose to follow.
Through hard candy and facility
It could have only ended badly,
Maybe not the way you wanted it to be
Just the way you deserve it to be.”

"I could have made it right if I had a family,
A girl, a kid, a will to live, a solid education,
Could have been a proud father's son,
A glossy pearl in a mother's eye, a shoulder for a brother.
One day I heard the wind say we all can start over again,
That pain was an illusion growing deep in every man,
That it always has a plan, but how to make it fail
When your speaking with a gun that you've already loaded?
When you're holding a trigger that you've already pulled?
You're dead.”