Heartache

I hide myself
To never let her see
The things I've done
The flaws I hate
All of the worst parts of me
Like breaking hearts
The broken bones
This struggle with anxiety
Bloodshot eyes cry out for sleep
But now I never dream


Should I say
Everything that I'm so scared to admit to?
I'll pretend that I'm okay
But in my darkness I still find you


Should I lie
About the past and all of my mistakes?
Or pretend I'm fine, leave this all behind...
Say there's no heartache


I hold myself
To never let her know
Just how open I can be
How scared I am to breathe
Whenever you're around
Like painting pictures without meaning
Writing songs that have no words
Give me something to believe in
Before I give myself to her


Or should I say
Everything that I'm so scared to admit to?
I'll pretend that I'm okay
But in my darkness I still find you


Should I lie
About the past and all of my mistakes?
Or pretend I'm fine, leave this all behind...
Say there's no heartache


Say there's no heartache


And in this quiet hour
When no one else is here
I find the courage locked inside of me
To finally face this fear
Tell it to "leave, just go away
I never needed you anyway"
And as long as I still bend
I refuse to break
Or give in to this heartache