Reason To Care

all these things i see, all the doubts in my mind
all the facts i face and the truth i can't find
with hatred so intoxicating and meaningless,
what can i say on always fucking pissed false start,
so much hate- got to pacify to survive
and hope that what's in my heart
can be translated to my mind
and with this chaos that lives inside my heart
if you and i are really so far apart
i can't help thinking, somewhere, out there-
there must be something -- a reason to care
friends, ha yeah, sure i don't talk to them anymore
something is wrong and it must be with me
'cause i'm the only the one who does not see
they say "trust the art, not the artist"
now do you see how small your part is?
make you feel better? fucking tears me apart-
no responsibility and no heart
no wait, i've made a mistake
still believe? damn straight
friends, ha yeah, sure but i just can't care anymore
something's wrong and it must be with me
i guess that's the way i want it to be
no more songs about the past,
i always say the next will be my last
one thing i'm so scared to see
is that you become what you hate
and that might be me