January 23rd

always reaching never grasping. realize failure once again. walk away. from this melancholic state of mind. different thoughts are intertwined running wild. mass confusion force me to think in nonsense terms as you slip away without me being aware. i couldn't even see it cause i'm so fucking blind. like an overcast day clouds concealed what was really there. my judgement clouded just the same nothing make sense anymore. i cling to your image over hundred miles everyday because i still care and that's why it hurts.
heart grows cold. when i walk down this path alone i think of the times that were spent. were they wasted? never. close my eyes and think of the place where all this running in circles stops and i can finally fucking breathe. you soiled this in his bed. he wouldn't know at least i know. and i will never forget what it felt like when you said you didn't love me.