Beautiful

In the spiralin' mind
What do we dive in and find?
The deeper we fall
Depends on just how high that we climb
I guess we all built this wall
Here one lie at a time
And went to great lengths for the longest
To try to deny em
Did you resolve your past yet?
Cause I didn't mine
So Between love and hate
Just how wide is the line?
For me to bottle all this pain
Is just deciding on dyin'
So that's urgency I have
When I'm writing a rhyme
Every fiber inside
Of this fire of mine
Is full of ire a virus
In such a violent time
I take the wrath and the pride
And just divide it in sides
You feel the passion arise
As it arrives in his eyes - And I'm gone
Back
In this standing parade
Pulling the pin out
On this fucking hand Grenade that I wave
Left Abandoned betrayed
I played a hand in this fate
Maybe the only thing that I can
Understand and create

They say I'm strange
And I'm unusual
This all I got here
My life is a musical
I know you don't love me
You love what I do for you
They call it ugly
But I say it's beautiful
They say I'm strange yeah
I'm still unusual
I talk to myself here
I'm trying to get through to you
Ain't nobody love you
Just look what they do to you
So I just take everything that's brutal
And uh I make it beautiful

When I'm in your speakers
Half the rhyme I go jeepers creepers
I play for keepers
Smash phenomenal pieces
This is a star being born
Astrological features
How do you mourn
These pathological creatures
Riding the storm
Till my five in the morn
Colliding with scorn
Taking a bath with these leeches
Jesus it's such a passionate thesis
I leak on pieces of pages
There's no peace in this beast
I try to keep it in cages
But I can't contain it
Blood and pain in a painting
What a strange entertaining
Sudden change when he's sayin' it
Cut and vein and then drain it
That's the level payment
That I gave to the game -
No other way to explain it - ain't it
Something worth livin' for
I found in my darkness
Will I be forgiven or
Go drown with the heartless
I guess it still
Remains to be seen
If I can just go back to sleep
And try changing the dream

They say I'm strange
And I'm unusual
This all I got here
My life is a musical
I know you don't love me
You love what I do for you
They call it ugly
But I say it's beautiful
They say I'm strange yeah
I'm still unusual
I talk to myself here
I'm trying to get through to you
Ain't nobody love you
Just look what they do to you
So I just take everything that's brutal
And uh I make it beautiful