First Chance Only

I know it's a cop-out for me,
but I don't care.
I know I messed up
and now it's me moving in.

One chance is all we get in this world today;
first chances,
first impressions,
I messed it all up.

All I wanted was to show myself to you,
and I messed up.
A shy little girl,
that's what you saw,
the exact opposite of me,
me and my bravery...
that never showed.
If only you saw inside me,
there is so much more.

So today I'll go without thinking of you.
Yetm
I'll remember you
and the lesson you taught me.
Without grasping that first chance,
you lose.
Lose anything you might have had.

And I'm okay with it -
I'm learning my lesson
and learning it well.
Experience is the best
and harshest
way to learn.

So the next time you see me,
I hope you still smile.
I still want to be with you,
but you know what?
Only as friends.
Those deathly words I never wanted to hear before,
I believe in them now.
And I hope you do, too.
So I'm asking you for that second chance,
That second chance as friends,
Instead of disregarding each other.