Preventer

i wake up and i start thinking
nothings wrong but something's missing
i can't think about her anymore
is that intelligence or is that ignorance
still i cant sleep with out her breathing
its midday now i start yelling
nothings right but im not telling
i cant let go so i just need to know

is she ok?
am i still afraid
of all the fights we had
and of all the stupid things i said?
but i care for her
even more

all she ever wanted was free
but it wont be allowed
and its on my shoulders now that's not intelligence
that's just ignorance
all we have is more hurt feelings
darkness comes im still impatient
my phone rings...my whole day changes
i cant let go so i just need to know

i can now just fully conceive
why she left suddenly
suddenly or it seemed
this was really a long time coming
constantly confronting
everyday more nothing
i am the just buried anchor
i am the great preventer
of all the best whatever
to only be more daring
maybe id stop comparing
everyone i meet to K@r&

before i lose more