Backstabber

It's an obsession can't you see? Just hand me the Paroxetine.
I'm a backstabber, OK I've said it, there's no more need for you to take it.
Don't force that fake smile any more, It's OK to hate me.

Your loyalty I don't deserve, the guilt I feel is beyond words.
I know to you this all sounds wrong, but I don't care, these are my songs.
I hate to do things behind backs, I guess you'll never understand.
It isn't you it's always me, this band’s become my OCD.

It's been going on some time, I see I'm totally out of line,
But I hear these sounds inside my head and I want them heard just how I meant.
I know that I've destroyed the bond, but I should never have made it.

Not many things I call my own, not many things I can control,
I do not diss the way you play, I just gotta do it my way.
When money's tight I can’t deny, the only way is DIY,
Why should I do things by the book? They're just fuckin' waveforms.