Call For You To Carry The Pains Away

After the flames
The dust is annoying in my mind
From all sides left behind
I face the rubble
I hear the purling tears of the non-believers
To soft to knit a mind out of the whisper
And I thought all along
The breathing in the fog has dried out
I'll never look at myself
You'll never have control over me
They'll never come to know
How you pull me down inside
Outside it's getting dark and cold
I try to break their pleading
Inside it's getting dead and free
I got to kill their pleading
And I call for you to carry the pains away
The constant wailing cuts a swath thru my mind
Cuts a way thru my doubting sanity
Breaking the wall I built to save me from myself
Got to sentence myself for the emptyness you caused to me
For all the pain inside of me
I'll never look at myself
You'll never have control over me
They'll never come to know
How you pull me down inside
Outside it's getting dark and cold
I try to break their pleading
Inside it's getting dead and free
I got to kill their pleading
And I call for you to carry the pains away
You replied my question for the meaning of life
By force and stained with blood
Can't make myself believe
That my life is running as it should be
But I can tell lies to close my eyes
To be in hiding not to be found
I'll never look at myself
You'll never have control over me
They'll never come to know
How you pull me down inside
Outside it's getting dark and cold
I try to break their pleading
Inside it's getting dead and free
I got to kill their pleading
And I call for you to carry the pains away