Fingers Crossed

If I'm being careful with what I say, then I guess I'm not saying much at all. I know I really can't complain, but nothing means much to me most days. I know your mind can wander, but mine just ran away. If you think I'm happy barely getting by, you've got me all wrong.

If I could stop getting in my own way, maybe I could get to sleep. If today wasn't a complete waste, but coming close isn't close enough for me.

So I made an appointment, to get someone to notice, and I found I don't need someone to ask, "Hey kid, how hopeless are you feeling today?" Just keep your head down and it'll work out. Sorry I can't believe in that. Cause those are just words, and they don't work, but thanks for thinking that I'm worth pulling back. I know your mind can wander, but mine just ran away. I don't want to say that it was fate, but maybe I had it coming.

If I could stop getting in my own way, maybe I could get to sleep. If today wasn't a complete waste, but coming close isn't close enough for me, but coming close is still the best I've been all week