A Ballad To The Hated

Alone
No complacency
Tears
Insatiable
Silence
Broken
I cant feel anything
Despondent and alone
Ungrateful tears will fall
Onto this rotting parchment of my soul
Like a bush in summer
Dried and withering just waiting for the spark
To send it up in flames
I've set myself on fire to please you
But yet you stood and laughed at my misfortune
You always have
Finding pleasure with my failures
I anxiously scream "why"
Why must I feel so small
An ant surrounded by the rays of a magnifying glass
I cant escape this torture
Torture, your insatiable joy
Finding pleasure with every finger you tear off
And every vein you sever with steel
I would set myself on fire to please you
But yet you would laugh like you always have
Is it me?
What have I done wrong?
What did I do to you?
Or is the question really what did I do right?
Anguished and anxious
Bleeding from fright
I'll scream retaliation into the night
Anguished and anxious
Bleeding from fright
I'll scream your name into the night
I've done all I can to make you see
Who I really am
Years of trying and endless nights of crying
Has left me nowhere but the start
So here I go again
Alone
No complacency
Insatiable
Silence
Broken
Deny it all you want to
But I know, I know the truth
What have i ever done to you?
I've set myself on fire to please you
But yet all you've done is laugh
Haunted by my past
I've found sanity at last
Or as close as I can ever get
Such a pitiful excuse to watch
Float gently down, resting at my feet
A single autumm leaf
Untouched by antything
The children play carelessly
Not aware of what could happen if we fail
So miserably
So miserable, the truth it hurts
I've set myself on fire to please you
But yet all you've done is laugh
I cant stand to feel unwanted
The single leaf that fell to fast
Constrasting with the concrete
The child left out with his head in his hands
Haunted by my past
There is no sanity at last
I'm so sick of tears without a reason
Or the weather without seasons
The two fall hand in hand
Tensions rise
My blood boils
The swing of a fist
Bruises and black eyes to line it all
I've set myself on fire to please you
But yet, yet you always laugh at my misfortune
Misfortune, petty whispers
I hear the words, I bleed as well
If I'm human then you must be the machine
Its the only explanation for the disregard
Or is it just too hard to look me in the eyes
Tell me please, I beg of you
I need to know the truth
I'll douse myself in gasoline
And let you light the match
We can be the fire
I've set myself on fire for you
And my skin corrodes with flame
While I scream so loud
I scream to you
"Why do you hate me so?"