Hopelist

I hope if I happen to go,
That everything goes the way that you planned it.
I know when I'm not around,
It'll probably seem a little less panicked.
If they said that I could stick around,
Be by your side and pull you down.
I am afraid I'd make a choice that neither of us could take down again.

I didn't ever want,
I never thought I'd be,
In a situation that defies contingency.
I didn't ever need,
I never thought I'd see,
The day when I would share the straits of codependency.
Whoever said if you want to play the game,
You've got to pay the price gave sage advice.

I hope,
That maybe you know.
That you're not alone in feeling defenseless.
You know,
when I'm not around.
It'll probably seem a little less senseless.
But if we could try,
To entertain,
The reasons why
We feel the same.
I am afraid we'd make a choice,
That neither of us could take down.