Convictions

Where have I gone? So far where I stood such a short time ago, I'm returning home. I was nothing more than a walking contradiction of the ministry I dearly adore. But no more will I carry the blood on my hands of my fallen comrades. My fallen comrades, how could I do this to you? Do not look to me, I will fail you every time. There is but One who cares, and I swear I've blinded you from the light. I am searching for answers, of how I lost myself in the blink of an eye. And led your astray for so long, astray for so long. I was nothing more than a walking contradiction of the ministry I dearly adore. But no more will I carry the blood on my hands of my fallen comrades. For it's murder in cold blood. Murder in cold blood. But my name isn't the only one on the death toll. I took you down with me, and now I'm gonna pay with my life. I deserve this rope around my neck, tied to this millstone and tossed into the sea. But God, thank you, for mercy, hope, and grace. For my life was so hopelessly disgraced. But no, I will not pull them down any longer. I take full responsibility for my actions., I'm returning home