I'm Not Surprised

A heart attack of flashing light
I’m still not bruised from the horizon
I gave you spare keys into my mind
You transformed into a thief, into the night

I’m paralysed, demoralised
I’m paralysed, by your surprise
And all the worlds around me, I didn’t wanna see
I’m paralysed, I’m not surprised

I keep the knife right in my back
Just to remind me nothing ever lasts
I don’t need solace or revenge
Just to make sure that it won’t open again

I’m paralysed, demoralised
I’m paralysed, by your surprise
And all the worlds around me, I didn’t wanna see
I’m paralysed, I’m not surprised

Stop, breathe
Exhale all the bitter memories
Absolution now, aim
Stay, leave
Trust your gut not the hyperbole

I’m not surprised