Everything I Ever Hated

Now I realize that my life has
Become everything that I despise
And now I think I could care
Even if I wanted I couldn't be there for you

How could I
Become everything I've ever hated
How could I
Become everything I've ever hated now

Beside my bed in my drawer
Lies a thousand numbers I ignore
And on my machine a hundred calls
You keep on trying but I'm never at home

And no I don't to be the one who's there for you
And no I don't I could if I tried

How could I
Become everything I've ever hated
How could I
Become everything I've ever hated
How could I
Become everything I've ever hated
How could I
Become everything I've ever hated now

I can't control this monster
I've become
God won't you change me
I can't control this monster
I've become
God won't you change me
(But I'll never change)

How could I
Become everything I've ever hated
How could I
Become everything I've ever hated
How could I
Become everything I've ever hated
How could I
Become everything I've ever hated now