Happy Birthday

I've forgotten how it feels to be feeling absolute
And I wonder if it's real: all I see is black and blue
Are you ever coming back? Or is winter going to stay?
Burning off all of my lies, happy birthday.

This is me when I am sad.
This is me when I am bored.
I'll just drink myself to sleep.
I guess this phone just doesn't work.
And I never wanted this
but I guess I never knew
exactly what I wanted
from you.
Happy birthday.

Seems I've ruined everything
and it's not my first time.
I have ruined everything
every time I get it right.

Are you ever coming back? Or is my fear going to stay?
Cockroach crawling up my back,
Guess I've made a mistake.
And I guess I've made a mistake
I guess I've made a mistake
I guess I'm your big mistake.
Your birthday present never came
Happy birthday.