Wake

creeping death
clammy fingers
pulling me back
trying to soothe my inner tension
but it feels like a panic attack
rush felt through my body
feel the sweat pool at my palms
will I ever make it back the same?
should I just end it all?
charcoal like a sunburn
head is getting tight
wipe it off my list
if I could make it through the night

burn burn
hold your breath til you feel it
you learn
now’s your chance to deal with it
concerned
for your health cause it’s real enough
discern
whether or not you want
to give it up cause it hurts

why did I come back?
doesn’t seem to be that fun
I haven’t run out
feels like I’m the only one
feel the comedown
it feels like it never leaves
it feels like I’ve changed now
like my mind has been diseased

burn burn
take my hand and walk with me
be my candle
it will burn