Terrified

Takin up space
Contemplate
To keep a straight face
I dissipate
The words I need
Can’t come to say
My eyes are closed
But I’m wide awake

Empty tank
Still, I sank
To the bottom floor
So quick babe
Release my shame
With an earthquake
Lookin’ up north
For a better day

Outside
I wear my light
But I’m aching
Remaining
Are the parts of my body that keep me
Alive
I know in time
I’ll be saying
I made it
But I was terrified

I call my bluff
But it’s not enough
To make me stop
And comе undone
Look what I’ve becomе
What I was running from
But the clock is up
My body goes numb

The rain is crashing down
My windows fogging now
I can only hope from when I get out
That my demons will stop making sound

Outside
I wear my light
But I’m aching
Remaining
Are the parts of my body that keep me
Alive
I know in time
I’ll be saying
I made it
But I was terrified


I’m terrified of the ones I love
I’m terrified one day they’ll stop
I’m terrified he’ll pull the plug
But most of all I’m the one I’m afraid of
I’m terrified of the ones I love
I’m terrified one day they’ll stop
I’m terrified he’ll pull the plug
But most of all I’m the one I’m afraid of

Outside
I wear my light
But I’m aching
Remaining
Are the parts of my body that keep me
Alive
I know in time
I’ll be saying
I made it
But I was terrified