Lovesick

killed--but i'm still struggling, to hold on to
you--i know i'm failing. it feels like my arms
are tied to my hips, and i, just tripped i'm
falling--

but not because i'm lovesick or am i lovesick?

it felt so warm with you and now my own bed
feels foreign to me--i guess i just hate things,
that are empty and i'm sleepy--

but not because i'm lovesick or am i lovesick?

it seems like my world is falling to it's end,
it seems like the color gray.

pictures in perfect color with words to listen to,
that's the scene i saw--and now, that my hope is
crushed, and fingernails are gone, i'm bleeding--

but not because i'm lovesick or am i lovesick?

please don't hold out on me, the distance cant be
that far, it can't be--this is confusing me, what's
wrong with me? what's wrong, with me?

i'm not lovesick or could i be? i'm so--confused
what's wrong with me?