A Song For My Future Self

When you're with the trees and grass
The magic always seems to last
And how you love to take your daughter there
And replace your worries with the air
It's easier to stick with
What you've got and take the hit in
All the forms of prescribed medicine
Sunlight just ain't getting in
Did you miss a right hand turn?
It's always harder to be loved when you love suffering

Have you seen your younger pictures
With unborn brothers and dead sisters?
Even though they're shot on black and white
Your eyes have never been so bright
I wonder if you dream
And if you do, what do you see?
Are there a thousand childhood memories?
Suppressed Jungian shadow aspect vulnerabilities

It's not easy
Do you wake to feel the day?
Or do you wake to get paid?
You didn't listen
You're in a game

You could say that it has meaning
But that sentiment is fleeting
When there's mortgages around your neck
And your wife is sleeping with her ex
Part of you doesn't mind
'Cause there's a bounce in her step
She wears her favourite yellow summer dress
And makeup saved for Sunday best
But the saddest thing of all
Is that it's for another lover in another bed

Someday it will all be over
You were fearful, now you're older
And entirely dependent
On the people you neglected
What if there's no final answer
The existential disaster
Could you learn to love this precious life
Before it's too late?