4/26

Another day of big plans but I woke up at 5 PM
With a cocktail of rage, apathy and doubt stirred in my head
I thought of going outside, making plans and seeing friends
Then I watched The Simpsons for an hour and went back to bed

And I know it's my fault that I'm stuck in this rut
All my motivation's leaking through a hole I've given up trying to plug
I'm the not yet buried dead and this basement is my grave
As I blissfully resign to waste away

So I went down to the city, the summer wind was at my back
If it could lift me off the ground into the sky, I would never come back
To this place full of closed-mindedness and fear
As soon as you turn your back I'll disappear

And I can't help reflecting on how it went wrong
Why my default emotion's apathy and all my best friends now are Lifetime songs
I've got nowhere left to go, and too many places to stay
As I blissfully resign to waste away