Inert

Arms behind my head staring up at the sky
Focusing through a lingering bittersweet smoke, I reach deep inside
Backing away closing in from all sides, the attack is short lived – my defences overrun
And I'm bleeding inside, and I'm burning inside and all I gave has been for nothing

And you still mean something to me
Angered and wronged, not brave enough to move on
And you bleed something from me
I'm not made of stone, I'm not that strong

This painful dwelling on the past becomes addictive to me I'm warmer here
My stomach is so cold I strike blades through my heart just to feel
A blackened cancer of thought infecting everything I do and everything I say
It's always been for you
And I'm living for your memory blindly hoping you approve
From obsession to insanity I would kill myself for you

Down through this, I take another step
In to the madness the chaos and the horror
Sleep through this I shift through fires
In the name of your memory

Through bittersweet smoke
Arms behind my head
Sleeping alone
Imagining that you're here.