I'm Gonna Miss Everything

May 5th
Wake up in an ambulance
Holding my brother's hand
Asking him what went wrong
Throwing fits
They ask who's president
I say "it don't make sense
Is there a war going on?"

The fire in my mind and the first time I felt crazy
I'm still paying that fine
I can't remember the look on your face when I told you
I might want to die

But every person I've been or I am gonna be -
I'm gonna miss everything

Decade since
Living basement to basement
My dreams shot up for target practice
All my friends have moved on
Is this all there is?
My selfish equation?
Slouching into oblivion?
Find out where I went wrong

I try to remember when this all didn't feel like an ending
Or being swallowed alive
But I'm just trying to remember the sound of you voice
When the bag goes over my eyes

Every person I am or I am gonna be -
I'm gonna miss everything
Every person I am or I am gonna be -
I'm gonna miss everything
Every person I am or I am gonna be -
I'm gonna miss everything
Every person I am or I am gonna be -
I'm gonna miss everything