Now What?

Sleepless again, I'm always overthinking the past
The present and the future, staring at the ceiling in the dark

I finally have what I always wanted, a house, my baby's slowly growing, but (?)

And now what?
There's always something missing here
Now what?
I think it's clear I take after my father
Always so scared of dying alone without having done anything great

Now where's the girl with the carefree smile and a giant heart, and a fearless mind?
Where is she now?
Why is she scared?
And what is it that she's looking for?

And now what?
There's always something missing here
Now what?
Everything that I've always wanted to get is finally planted
Everything that I've always wanted to get is finally planted

It's sad to see I could never be the one you think you know I am
I don't hold up to your highest standards
Nobody can, nobody will
You are a dream, I don't need your light
None of that's real, none of it's real
I told myself, never again
Never again, but here I am
And I'm begging you to please teach me how to live my life in harmony