Autumn (I Wish I Was Better)

I feel my soul come alive when I watch the leaves die
But I'm still turning gold from the glow that I saw in your eyes
Writing letters to a ghost of who you once were
I plagiarise every line 'cause I can't remember

Now I miss every friend I never found
Nicotine and a knack for let-downs
I've been trying to find the words to say
To get you back around

I never had a chance to get it right
But I never tried
I can't find the words I wanna write
To tell you that I'll be better next time

You felt your heart come alive when you watched our love die
And now I'm left feeling cold in the void that you left in my life

Now I miss every friend I never found
Caffeine and a knack for let-downs
I've been trying to find the words to say
To keep you all around

I never had a chance to get it right
But I never tried
I gotta find the words I wanna write
To tell you that I'll be better next time

Come close, I'll keep my distance
Get hurt, people that I let in
I want to be something you still miss
I kind of wish that I was better than this