A Lack Of Being

i wish i didn't feel this way
i'll waste my time, i waste my breath
you say "hold on, don't ever forget"
it's impossible and we both know it


so you said maybe we could be "just friends"
leave this how it is and go on from here
just disappear, just disappear
"why are so you depressed all the time" you ask
but i have no reply
inadequacy has no reason, it's just a lack of being
or maybe never having been anything at all.