Beguiling

I tried to pin you down at 3 am
By 5 looks like you'd won me over again
I've spent the last year watching you deteriorate
But you're a likable bully
All along it's been my mistake

'Cause all these nuanced conversations
That cry for quiet consolations
Were affectations of affection
That stem from subjective rejections


And still I loved your lilting anger
Dissected every word you sang then
Now I know every loaded line
I've heard them all too many times

But I don't believe you anymore
This insincerity is starting to bore me
And I can't figure out what's wrong with you
When these indiscretions start anew
And I'm torn

And I thought I'd gotten through to you but then
Next day looked like you one-upped me again
Your machinations leave me speechless and resigned
And while I won't denote your talent
I'm gonna quit wasting my time

All these ripped off observations
Encasing sly retaliations
The declarations of defection
From your beguiling new deception

But I still love the way you eye me
You gauge my temper, satisfy me
And you're so quick to realign
But I've heard that song too many times

And I don't believe you anymore
This insincerity is starting to bore me
And I can't figure out what's wrong with you
When these false confessions start anew
And I'm torn

So why'd you have to change?
Or have you always been this way?
I miss the way you were before
You figured out that I'm not yours
And at every show
I'm just another face in your front row
But now I know you're so alone

So why'd you have to change?
Do you ever miss me the same way?
I miss our long talks on the porch
Your shifting eyes as we retort
And it's been so long
I can't remember what went wrong
I miss you but I'm giving up