Endorphins

I am
Alive again for the first time
I see it for what it truly is
A chance, a chance to be
Happy in my own skin
Content with where I am for the first time
Every day I wake
With the pain in my head
TREMORS SHAKE
HALLUCINATE
Every day I wake
With the pain in my head
SEIZING SHAPES
ORGANS SCRAPE
My memory’s not perfect I can feel each thought fall out
With every sip I lose my youth I lose my charm and clout
I cannot take it, excuses abound around
Persisting rather than getting help and getting out
Not such a young man but I’m wasting away
I’m getting wasted I can feel my body shake, can’t stay awake
It’s time to be honest, it’s time to beat this