It's All A Game

And it's all a game
I'm the only one, who else should have your name?
Fall in love until it's not the same
If you lose me, don't you take the blame

Yeah, uh
When it's all said and done, it's much easier done than said
All I see is blue when you leavin' it all on read
I don't wanna talk through it, I already got through it
So stop askin' me if I need a moment again
I need a moment alone, but I've seen some moments extend
I'd rather sabotage my heart than to see it broken again
So I- uh, self-sabotage (Yeah)
Everything I'm hidin' is the reason that I camouflage
'Cause would I still be in the picture if we had to turn the cameras off
Put my hands together and pray that I'd get some damn applause?
Uh, it's unlikely
Notice the more that I put myself down, the more everybody like me
So I never win, you, me, them, I want fuckin' everything
And once I get it, I know that I won't feel like anything
It'll be the same as before
I don't wanna play this game anymore
Yeah

And it's all a game
I'm the only one, who else should have your name?
Fall in love until it's not the same
If you lose me, don't you take the blame

I just hit refresh again
Like maybe this time, it's gonna change
Sitting here and clicking buttons
Like it's all a fuckin' game

I'll admit that I'm insecure like my fuckin' track
Sometimes I say "I love you" just so I can hear it back (Back)
Maybe that makes me fuckin' toxic
I been on the same shit, I been so obnoxious
Passin' through the matrix since we left for college
I gotta be patient, I don't see you often
At least we can FaceTime, hold you when we have a chat
Forgot how you feel, I got accustomed to the shattered glass
Yeah, a thousand miles from home
Made me feel like we're together even when we're all alone
I'm ungrateful, why the fuck do I complain?
My subconscious always hit me prematurely with the shame
I'm alive, I been lookin' for a dead end
Thinkin' it'll keep me safe
But if I stop bein' afraid to lose
There won't even fuckin' be a game

And it's all a game
I'm the only one, who else should have your name?
Fall in love until it's not the same
If you lose me, don't you take the blame