Deep Cuts

Deep cuts
I?m wrapped up Infection of something odd
I hear nothing I?m captured in thoughts
I have lost all
My faculties
I?ve lost them deep in me
If I would start searching at soul
I?d never knew why I feel so cold
At every turn
Where I seek my mind
And then leave it behind
Deep cuts locked me up inside
And drowned me in hoplessness
They got the pain out
To forget - can?t forget
Why does it be too late to cleanse my blood
Why does it drag me back into the mud
Deep down inside, I just hide
From myself ?myself?self
In my life, I fight against the longing war
Inside, inside my mind
To leave my wounds behind