The Stranger

happiness was in me still. the universe's benign indefference.
opened my heart forever. it was better disappear than to burn.
all i want is that life remembers me.
good life was mine no longer
light and heat made me dizzy. the dark got me in the end.
fool tricks asking for trouble in my mind. a free man lies on my thinking.
my feelings influence my physical condition. the door of my undoing.
fatefully shoots like in a gangster-rap. loud...glare...not sad, just dream-like.
a moment of violence. enjoys everything in me.
a hot day's fire. makes me feel much better. i suppose i loved her.
everything in my life had changed, really.
i was in great urge to touch a new mother. could i turn a professed theist in the end?
today sun and life killed me.