Sirens From Hell

oh, i'm still obscured
by your presence, life
beautiful...
the sun is shining
through my back
and i feel...
prepared to grab a lot of ideas...
a warn
and peace
and sun. and trees.
but i got rain instead of
sun. sun.
life, my beautiful opal:
i ordered evrything,
but i got only:
1/2 chicken from hell
winter
the summer is gone
where was the sun?
and i feel like...
rainy. lonely.
but sometimes warm
and friendly
i'm fading through
the precious stones if life
life. you beautiful, dumb opal
and i thank you very much
how much?