Do You Turn Red?

Do you turn red?
When I am freezing
I close my eyes and dream about it
I remember what I did
I [?] lose it
When I wake up, screaming in my bed
Yes, I remember everything
You look at me, [?] ([?])
Then I turn red and feel like sinking
[?] all about it in the morning
Will you tell me everything?
[?] it's desperate
I reimagine it every day
I know I magnify in my head
I'm scared I won't forget 'til I'm dead
I'm dead, I'm dead, I'm-