Suction Cup Hearts

The night times are the worst
Time for me
I carry you around like humidity
It's something I never mention
It's something I never see
Another dose of reality
Real enough to steal my sleep
Suction cup hearts always fall
Down

My fear of forgiveness gave me
Speed
As I passed up giving you what
You needed
Afraid of my thoughts words and deeds
They might beg me to slow my
Sympathies
Enough for me to feel the speed
Enough to make me never leave

Was it stupid pride or human
Nature
To blind myself and try to hate
You
Looking back I guess I acted
Against my heart and just
Reacted against the things that would
Make me feel
Snuff them out before they were
Real