Cant Settle

I've been back and forth and back to this a few times ive quoted lines for lives i couldnt find a way to make it through this time, ill tell you im a coward and a bold faced liar. everything you want i could never desire, until im two years down the road looking back on everything im giving up. cant make up my mind. ive been back and forth a few times, and theres nothing that will set this straight. ive been back to this a few times, and theres nothing to take that back. ive been coming up short, but ive been looking for reasons to betray every season, i thought i could leave this behind