On The Floor

I’m trying
But still I close my eyes
The dreaming
Bringing his face to mine

Lock the door

The constant buzzing
All through the night
The fighting
Rips me all up inside

On the floor

I pace, I run my mouth
I pray and wait
I cross out his name on the page

(How long ’til) this washes away?
(How long ’til) my body is safe?
(How long ’til) I walk in the light?
(How long ’til) this heart isn’t mine?

The rise and fall
Of his chest on me
I’m trying
But still it’s all I see

The violent
Current of energy
I hide it
Away and underneath

Lock the door

I shake, I promise everyday
To change
I cross out his name on the page

(How long ’til) this washes away?
(How long ’til) my body is safe?
(How long ’til) I walk in the light?
(How long ’til) this heart isn’t mine?

Take this wildness away

I’m trying
But still I close my eyes
The dreaming
Bringing his face to mine

Out the door

I pace, I run my mouth
I pray to change
I cross out his name on the page

(How long ’til) this washes away?
(How long ’til) my body is safe?
(How long ’til) this heart isn’t mine?

I just want him in my arms
I just want him in my arms