Incomplete

i can't sing that song anymore and mean the words.
time passed. i grew up. through cracks emotions slipped. well take your pick.
I'm sure whatever you decide will be right.
if not you have a way with knowing what to say to make me believe in fantasies.

so I'll change the chords.
I'll rewrite the words and wish it were this easy to change history.

i can't. i won't. i know I'm alone.
but at this point i am used to it
i can't. i won't. i know i'm alone.
i never thought I'd be jaded in my 20's
i can't. i won't. i know i'm alone.
please tell me that you were once this desperate
i can't. i won't. i know i'm alone.
i think it might help give heavens light to hell
i sat down to blame you
but i cant bring myself to say "cut me? well cut you too"
i guess it's safe to say the only person i ever hated was myself

but i must be almost over you
because today i could jerk off and not feel too lonely, desperate, or pathetic
i was satisfied and that was it.
the only person that ever loved me was myself.

there's comfort in knowing there will be a day where there's nothing left of me and nothing left of you.