Selfishly Suicidal

Don't roll your eyes up and look straight through me
Can't you see how much this is hurting Mum and Dad?
Just sat in silence as I try to persuade you
Can't you see there's more to you than this?
This pain

Every morning
I look into your room
To make sure you're snoring
I'll always make sure

You turn the lights off and sit in darkness
Trying to add to the effect that is already burning me
If you do something stupid I swear I'll kill you dead
Can't you see there's more to life than being less than you?

Every evening
I take all of the painkillers from the kitchen
Keep them hidden
Away from your pain

I have dreams, stood in July rain
Staring at all these people dressed in black
And I'm staring down looking at your eyes
But it hurts because I know they're not staring back
I wake and cry sometimes
I wake and cry sometimes
I wake
I wake

Every morning
I look into your room
To make sure you're breathing
I'll check until the day that I die
I love you
But you're killing me
I love you
Can't you see what you're doing to us all?

I see you smiling and feel much better
Better until the next time I see you frown