It's Been Too Long

Should I even bother because I never win
There is no other explanation
You say you'll make an appearance
And you promise
But then you never come
So is there a reason
For why you leave some
Form of hope before you're gone

So say you need me
Or I am leaving
This offers fading
I swear I'll be gone
You can't possibly
See how much I bleed
But honestly
It's been too long

I get so nervous
When I see you in person
I know I'll screw this up
I swear
That I've been here
Way too many times to count
So tell me what I'm supposed to do
When all I see you
When I close my eyes
Maybe I shouldn't sleep at night
I'm good at that
You need to realize

Realize you need me
Or I am leaving
This offers fading
I swear I'll be gone
You can't possibly
See how much I bleed
But honestly
It's been too long

So say you need me
Or I am leaving
This offers fading
I swear I'll be gone
You can't possibly
See how much I bleed
But honestly
It's been too long