Apathetica

This is the last song I'll ever write you
I swear by myself and God
I know what you're trying to do and it won't work
I'm so sorry that I'm a fool
It's such a shame that I didn't know
It's such a shame that you didn't see
It's such a shame that the good days are gone
It's such a shame I feel nothing for them
And even if I'd have known, it'd have still been a shame, Because

It's a long and lonely road to where I'm going
And when I get there it'll all be alright
But until then I'm so lost in a flurry of questions
If I get there, will it ever be alright?

Have you ever met my friend apathy?
Because he directly represents me
He's got a million friends worldwide
And he promised me something but he lied
All I got from him was the taste of failure
He claims that nothings for sure
And if you wonder why I'd buy in his shit
I wanted an easy way out and was sure that this wasn't

A long and lonely road to where I'm going,
And when I get there, it'll all be alright
Until then I'm so lost in a flurry of questions
If I get there will it ever be alright?

Do you know my friend disgusted anger?
He mentioned you more than a few times about my failure
I've found he never meant to do you any harm
But he's done all to cause alarm
He said nothing was my fault all was from you
That you had hurt me and now I must too
But I can't bare to think I'll hurt you at all
So I'll stop myself before I fall, because

It's a long and lonely road to where I'm going
And when I get there it'll all be alright
Until then I'm so lost in a flurry of questions
If I get there will it ever be alright?

So now I'm smiles from here on out, dealing with all I am dealt
With no more a grunt or a gripe, I swear it upon my life
They said lose the darkness
So I went where the silence was loudest
And I threw it down there as my best
It's the loudest silence I've ever heard
And it's waiting to get me
I saw where the darkness fell, because it took me with it to hell
And I'm fighting with all that I've got
Because when I lose, then I'll have naught
All the things that I said that I said
And all the things that I said that I meant
I didn't mean it.

Well I saw where the darkness fell, because it's dragging me down to hell
It took all the strength that I had, and it wants all the gladness I have.
He can have it.

Because it was a long and lonely road to where I went
And when I got there, nothing was alright
But for you and our sense of self
How can someone be so good at music but bad at everything else?