Landscape Of Headbashing Questions

Tried to get free
Much too often much too fast
Destroying myself
Torchering till breakdown
Not understanding that it's too vast
Solutions said,but nothing done
You still run
Through thousand deserts of hopeless faces
No water to find
No content smiles
You start to question
What to believe in this world of disappointment
The landscpae of good feeling dry
The truth pulled up in a lie
Shouldn't live in the way others want you to
But in everything lies a consequence
Can you deal with it
Does it fit
Not just destroying myself
But anyone else
How to do what you feel
When this is just theory
No connection to reality
Hard enough to find out
What and how you feel