Sometimes

Someday I'll write a book
about how long it took to break away
Today
Surrounded by the pain
I'm numb with Novocaine I cannot think
Sometimes I feel happy
Not today
Sometimes I just don't know what to say
This time
I wish I never wrote that chapter
now I'll never hear you're laughter
It's unkind
Suspicion is an art
I should have played it smart and stayed away
This time
I wasn't there to see
Your smile or feel the intimacy
Sometimes I feel happy
Not today
Sometimes I just don't know what to say
This time
I wish I never wrote that chapter
Now I'll never hear your laughter
It's unkind