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I try to move forward,
At my own pace
But the wind blows so hard
Into my face
Pushing me backwards
I lost my place

I've got some kind of infection
It makes me move
Move in the wrong direction
I guess time took it's toll
I no longer have contol
Of Which way I go

The times I tried
I failed
But the times I lied
I prevailed

I guess I'm just the
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