My Everything

I try to sleep but there is no use
If only I could be cold
If only I didn't care
It would be so much better
I recall those words you said to me
But I realize they were lies from the start
I can't breathe
I can't laugh
I can't smile
Not without you here
You were my happiness
My pleasure
My ecstasy
Though now you are my grief
My despair
My heartache