Cautiously Optimistic

I used to get in fights to bitter ends for shitty friends back
Before I realized the toll it takes
I used end my nights all teary eyed in the uber ride home
Before you had your own drawer at my place

As I’ve been told
By boys I know
I’m the most jaded girl they know
I’ve always been painfully realistic
But now I’m cautiously optimistic

When I think about my high school crush, how I held a grudge
Cause I had to watch him dance with her at prom
But now i’m learning how to make my peace with that
Packing all my bags and leave the past
Keep the dress and move on

As I’ve been told
By boys I know
I’m the most jaded girl they know
I’ve always been painfully realistic
But now I’m cautiously optimistic

I still miss my friends
I still wonder what I should’ve said
I still feel alone
When I’m in the car on my way home
And eighteen was rough
Being the girl running out of the prom ‘cuz she wasn’t enough
But now I’m in love

I’ve always been painfully realistic
But now I’m cautiously optimistic