Five (My Last Mistake)

I wondered if you'd ever know.
Ever feel the same about me.
Optimism crushed by insecurity.
I wondered if you'd ever know
The way I feel for you.
Yet part of me has always hoped you wouldn't.
(I wondered what would happen now if you knew everything.)

But now there's no more wondering.
I realize it's all too late;
I only hope our friendship won't be shattered.
You'll never see, never believe,
But please know now that if you leave,
I don't know how I'll ever live without you.

I'm sorry for everything.
Just don't go; don't leave.
Forgive me, don't let this
Be my last mistake.

I've confided all I have in you.
I've trusted you with everything,
But now you finally know my only secret.
Right now I'd give everything,
If only you'd remain my friend.
I don't care if it never becomes more.