This Time It Is Mine

It happens again in the fall
Twice in a year where we won't talk
Counting the days past December
Remember

Thirteen more hours thinking
I want to be the one who's sorry when you're gone
I want it right now
I want it all written down
Are you the person
Are you the one to let it go
(You'll regret these last goodbyes)
Let you know
(Don't hold my hand, this time it's mine)
I never said the snow would break my heart
(Forget the notes I wrote to you)
I swear I should have seen it from the start
(I won't be afraid)
I never told you this before
You weren't listening and it's cool

Chasing you away with midnight calls
But no one picks up so we can't talk
You say you're amazing
That's crazy

You break this once before
The higher standards fallen because of what you've done
I want it right now
I want it all written down
Are you the person
Are you the one to let it go
(You'll regret these last goodbyes)
Let you know
(Don't hold my hand, this time it's mine)
I never said the snow would break my heart
(Forget the notes I wrote to you)
I swear I should have seen i