The Day I Understood

So far I stand
Looking closely again
It's loose but solid
So clean and tarnished
So lost again
A map in my hand
So full and empty
With so little but plenty

At times we get so lost and devastated
Our paths are vague, but still so regulated
At times we feel so tired of trying to try
Wishing we could change all the things that make us

Chorus:
Cry...
I won't try to wash these tears out from my...
Eyes...
I won't try, 'cause they're the kind that never...
Dry...
They collide with everything I've ever tried to hide
And keep inside

Above, I'm sitting
So loose but fitting
I'm starved by eating
So cured by bleeding
My gut is misled
From all the pictures I've read
My memory's dead
But you remain in my head

Now I'm sealed but leaking
So silently speaking
Now I understand
I've confused my reading
A door closed but opened
Brand spanking new and broken
So belligerent and strident
But I haven't even spoken

Repeat Chorus

At times we get so lost and devastated
Our paths are vague, but still so regulated
At times we feel so tired of trying to try
Wishing we could change all the things we hated
All the things that make us

Repeat Chorus (2x)