Mea Culpa

I have died inside, my heart is subdued

I have despoiled all I hold most true

What remains of me is but a shell

An outer vision of an inner hell

I can never make this up to you

But I will never stop trying to

No matter how great the final cost

I can't yet believe that the fight is lost



Mea culpa

Mea maxima culpa

Forgive me, for I have sinned



There is nothing I can do or say

To lift the weight of the guilt from me

No thought or word is left untouched

Everything reminds me of my fall

Never more to stray from the righteous path

And to temptation in scorn to laugh

This is my desire

My only need

For you to forgive this ill-thought deed



My spirits they are flagging

My moral standards gone

Plunged into this darkness

In turmoil thrown

Shaken by the depth of my descent

Is it too late for a sinner to repent?

I have been blind but you have to see

That we must walk together from this nether world

Even in this weakness my faith in you is strong

I believe you can look beyond this wrong



Mea culpa

Mea maxima culpa

Forgive me, for I have sinned



There is nothing I can do or say

To lift the weight of the guilt from me

No thought or word is left untouched

Everything reminds me of my fall

Never more to stray from the righteous path

And to temptation in scorn to laugh

This is my desire

My only need

For you to forgive this ill-thought deed



The truth of what we were I have seen too late

Torn apart and cursed by my rising self-hate

In this act most hateful I put us to the test

I will see the strength of your love confessed

No more am I the servant of slavish lust

I feel stripped and flayed by my self-disgust

To the raging furies I am laid bare

And in truth, about myself I do not care



Mea culpa

Mea maxima culpa

Forgive me, for I have sinned



There is nothing I can do or say

To lift the weight of the guilt from me

No thought or word is left untouched

Everything reminds me of my fall

Never more to stray from the righteous path

And to temptation in scorn to laugh

This is my desire

My only need

For you to forgive this ill-thought deed



And I never meant to hurt you

I never thought I could

In this deceitful world

I wanted to be true

And I never meant to hurt you

I never thought I could

In this deceitful world

I am also untrue